Sunday, February 19, 2012

Hampton Blvd

By the time we moved into the Hampton Blvd house Aaron wasn't visiting often, Lindsey, we almost never saw, and Andy was running away constantly. They had pretty much abandoned me. I know they didn't mean to. I know if I had the chance to get out, I would have, but I didn't. It was just me and Steve most of the time. Andy would come home once every few days and he and Steve would get into a fight and he would be gone.

I loved that house though. I had a nice big room right next to the first floor bathroom. When we first moved in, there was a woman living in the duplex upstairs so Steve and mom were across the hall with Elly. Andy had his own room built in the basement. Then, the basement flooded, and Andy moved up to Mom and Steve's room while they moved upstairs with Elly. There was plenty of room in this house.

There were also a few friends around, and that's what I loved best about Hampton. The girl next door was just a few months younger than me. She was very religious, and very bossy, but she and I became friends pretty quickly. Her church became my escape for a long time. I started to really believe in god and pray that he would save me from this awful life. While Molly and i fought a lot, we were friends for a long time. See, was actually lived in that house for a few years.

Down the street was Kk. Kk was never as close to Molly as I was. The two were pretty different. Kk was more like me. I guess back then we were careless kids who only worried about which famous guy we were going to marry, but we both had a sadness inside of us too. We both hated being apart form each other. Every night in the summer was spent together. Most days we spent together too. Kk moved away after about a year or two of me knowing her, but we never lost touch. To this day I still consider her my best friend though we only talk every few months. This summer I will have known her for 16 years.

Molly and I did lose touch for a long time. In highschool, we didn't have many classes together, and we didn't live quite as close. She eventually left to be home schooled, and I didn't see her often for many years. We are facebook friends now, and she has an adorable baby and is married. When I decided to start going to church again, I went to her church. I still go there occasionally. I got to see Molly once before she moved away. I'm sure she thought nothing of it, but I really wish we had remained friends. She has grown up a lot and so have I.

We stayed in the house on Hampton until it flooded and we were sent to live in a Hotel. We lived in that Hotel for Six months, but that's another story. We moved back to Hampton for about a year before moving again. In all though, we lived at that house from the time I started 5th grade until I started highschool. Four years not counting our hotel stay.

All my life I had moved from place to place with little left to show of my former home. At Hampton Blvd, I finally had something left over, friends. Thought Molly and I lost touch over the years, and though Kk and I don't talk often, I still consider them my oldest friends, and love when we do have time to talk.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Bowden

Bowden wasn't much bigger than the apartment, and it wasn't much of a home. It was still in the age of avoiding being home as much as we could in order to avoid Steve. The house it's self was three small bedrooms, a livingroom and a small kitchen. Off of the kitchen was a play room that we stepped down into. It just now crossed my mind that this room was probably an old converted garage. I was going into the third grade when we moved into Bowden. I was in the 5th grade by the time we moved out. Bowden was the first house I stayed in for longer than a year, in a long time.

Bowden was also the time when Aaron and Lindsey started to drift away. I don't remember Lindsey much at all during this time. I keep trying to conjure a image of Lindsey on the couch or of us playing in the snow, but I just can't. I'm sure she was around sometimes, but for the most part, at the age of eight, my big sister had little interest in spending time with me. Aaron was still around at this time. We played toy store in the play room and we did a lot of walking. Walking, is what I remember most about Bowden.

I was only seven, but I spent much of my time at Bowden wondering the neighborhood on my own. Steve's parents had bought all of us a pass to the recreation center, and they had a pool there. I wasn't old enough to swim by myself, but sometime if I didn't have Aaron to check in with me, I would walk the mile or so to the rec center anyway. I would always try and get into the pool first, and often if worked. If not, I would sit in the snack room and people watch.

If Aaron was around, we also liked to go to the beach. I remember the beach being pretty far, way too far for a 7 year-old and a 13 year-old to go on their own, but we went anyway. For years I thought my memory betrayed me, but now that I have gone back to the area we lived in, I do think the beach was a couple of miles away. The nice thing about the beach was that my uncle lived just a few blocks away. Many days we would go to his house to wash the sand off with his hose and hang out with him before heading home. Going to the beach was an all day event for Aaron and I. Because of this, we went to the beach a lot.

See, at this time, mom was the one working while Steven spent most of his time home. He had slacked off on his asshole ways and was more into neglecting us all together. I don't know, maybe if we had been there more often Steve would have been just as bad, but at that time I had all the freedom in the world so it was easy to avoid Steve. When I think about it, while I had better times at other houses and we had more space at them, and cooler places to explore, Bowden was probably the most peaceful place I live in those years that Steven was around.

Bowden was the first house we moved out of on our own. Sometime around the time we lived there my mom decided to buy a sub shop. The sub shop was about half an hour away from Bowden, and it was a very successful business so my mom and Steve decided to buy a house closer to the sub shop.